Terrible Mobility

As a shock to no one, life’s been hard. I cannot walk, or even stand, without assistance. Even with help, it is incredibly difficult. I used to think double vision was horrible, now having just that would be a walk in the park. I’m fairly certain my 80-something grandma is faster than me currently. I feel like the biggest burden to everyone.

I also have no strength whatsoever. I can’t even roll over in bed unless Cody helps me. If he doesn’t help move me, I can guarantee that I won’t move an inch. I cannot move; regardless of how hard I try.

Because of my current state, we cancelled the ceremony part of our wedding celebration. We still have our reception scheduled. I’ve never been someone who has dreams of her wedding, but the fact I won’t walk down the aisle is so hard to accept. It makes me so sad to think about it. I try to think of our day happily; it’s become hard to. 

I don’t see any possible way I’ll be able to dance at my wedding celebration currently. I hope everything is better in May. I’ll think about it later. It’s May’s problem.