2024 Reflection

Lately my left eye and side of my face have been really bothering me; since this is the numb eye/side, i’ve been looking at this annoyance as positive. Meaning hopefully the nerves are attempting to heal. 

I saw everyone’s 2024 wrapped posts and it made me sort of sad. I barely have any photos that are positive or worthy to be shared because of cancer and treatment. I made sure to not take any photos for awhile during the year because of how swollen my body and face were from the steroid treatment. I don’t have any photos of Cody and I together the night we got engaged because I was so unhappy with how I looked. That was my own choice and I need to live with it now. I hope 2025 is better. 

With how awful 2024 was, it will forever be remembered as one of my best years. My beautiful niece was born in August and I got to marry my best friend in November. These two core events will always be so special. They are/were truly bright beams of light in a year of darkness. I need to remember how lucky I am

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  1. CheriJanuary 15, 2025 at 6:35 PM

    Hi Maria. Thanks for inviting us into your blog. What a gift to share your feelings and emotions with us. I wonder if you would feel com sharing advice for how to best support someone going through a battle like yours. What is the best type of support that would be good for you? You are a gift !

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